I sat in my car and cried, for about five minutes. Then I took myself out to a nice breakfast. I sat, ate perfectly poached eggs, drank iced tea, and worked the crossword puzzle, though not well. I mourned the loss of our baby, the baby I was surprised to find out I wanted, for exactly one hour. That was all the time I had. I had to get back home to relieve Abby (the best babysitter in the world).
I had to tell Jonah that the baby he had named Baby Mario (from the video game) was not going to be born into this world, but we would be able to meet him in heaven. He was sad, but tried to cheer me up. "Don't worry Mom," he said. "I'm sure God will dress him like Baby Mario while he is waiting for us."
Life goes on here. I have three beautiful and healthy children, whom I love, and would, even if they were ugly.
I'm SO very sorry! Big, big hugs to you! xxoo
ReplyDeleteOh, Tracey, I'm sorry. I was wondering what had happened but didn't want to ask. Losing a baby can be really hard, even when you've got great support (what a sweet thing for your son to say!) and three incredible reasons to be happy and grateful.
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry to hear that. That's a very tough thing to go through. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteYou have my deepest sympathy Tracey.
ReplyDeleteOh Tracey - poor, poor you. I'm thinking of you so much. That's a tough, tough deal and I speak from experience. I wish I could be helpful in some way, or even say something comforting. Take care of yourself and your lovely family and let them take care of you. xxx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry, Tracey. Will say a prayer for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry it has taken me so long to get here. Life has been so busy that blogging has been low on the list these days. I am so sorry to hear that Baby Mario could not stay with us. I hope that you and your family will find comfort as you grieve and carry on together. xo
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